Where do I begin?! It’s been awhile since I’ve posted in this blog. Apologies, uni takes a lot out from someone, especially due to the countless of essays and group work. Anyways, I wanted to just write about some of the few things I’ve learned the past year and share the things that I’m looking forward to in this new decade.
2019 brought MANY changes in my life. Obviously, I had my share of bad circumstances; however, I definitely can’t deny the amount of blessings I’ve received last year as well. Honestly, changes in life are probably one of the most scariest things to endure. Specifically, the moments, things or people that you’ve dearly held unto for quite some time. Yet, you know that it’s time to finally move on and grow up. I was afraid of things being different and having that sense of uncertainty to last. But I supposed the feeling of uncertainty was a way to realize what I wanted in my life currently. So, I did what felt the most appropriate for me. I screamed, yelled, cried, talked to myself (yes, I’m aware this sounds absurd), wrote, etc. Then after all my dramatics, I took a shower and did whatever I had to do that day (most likely school work). You know what, from that moment on, I didn’t dwell anymore about it. I chose to focus on myself and that was one of the best decisions I’ve ever done. As my mom told me on one of our daily walks: “You’re so young, there’s still so many things out there to see. Focus on building yourself first. Everything will fall into place when the time comes”. The new changes of 2019 was an opportunity to learn more about myself and really seek out a new sense of independence. I’d just like to say that I’m glad everything happened that way it did.
I was able to appreciate myself more and realize my full potential as an individual (as cliche as that may sound). In the midst of these changes, I gained new friends and continued to cherish my old ones. I continued to treasure my time with my family more and just felt overall contentment. I’m not the type to fully commit to the quote of “Everything happens for a reason”, but I do have my moments. I’d like to think that maybe, the changes that occurred led me to some incredible human beings (despite a handful of them being very annoying, but also being very great people). Maybe that’s why, as I write this post, I can’t really think of any other “bad” things that happened in 2019. Maybe, it’s because I gained so many great memories, that it overweighs any of the bad ones.
As this new year and decade begins, I don’t really know what will happen. But I do know that I’m not going to hold myself back, I have so many things I want to do and want to achieve. You can call me an ambitious seeker or an over-achiever (as what my Grade 7 classmates nicknamed me), but I’ve accepted that that is just who I am. The year 2019 was a year of changes for the better. Maybe, just maybe, 2020 will follow in its footsteps…or may even greatly surpass it.
p.s. will do my best to post more 🙂